I’m sorry for breaking my flawless composure,
I forget that to be strong is to lack disclosure.
I reveal the scars of my imperfections,
But I forget that I’m expected to be perfect.
I’m hurting more than you know,
But if it means protecting you it’s worth it.
An emotionless mask, and heart of stone,
Protect the ones I love the most.
For their sake and mine will remain alone.
I cannot become undone.
Vulnerability is weakness
And weakness is contagious.
A broken heart turns a man into something monstrous.
Yet mine remains a heart that won’t be broken
If vulnerability is weakness, I’ll be impervious.
None will ever see what lies beyond its guard.
None will ever have the chance to hear this heart beat again.
There is no comfort or warmth left in this place,
None are welcome where they do not belong.
None will ever hear the truth behind the lies.
What’s inside is locked away, far from prying eyes.
No one will ever know, except what’s written.
The pages and lines none will witness.
Like a prison for all the things that hurt me,
A prison that no one else will ever see.
For my sanity and their safety.
And they will never know,
Just how much I want to leave this place,
But who would ever bear my insanity?
This is the very place I know they’ll desert me.